A day in the life of Candyloo!

 "The Butcher"     Hi everyone!! I know I haven't been posting much but most of you know that I am pursuing my BSN degree. To those who don't know what BSN stands for it is a Bachelor of Science in Nursing. With that being said I am in the second semester of the nursing program. This degree absorbed all my life, free time, and everything else with it. I am very happy and proud of myself, so I am super cool with living under a rock temporarily. So wassup? Should be get started?     I thought of "The Butcher" about a month ago. I didn't think of him in a good way. I was just reminiscing about all the obstacles I had to go through to be here today. VERY FUNNY STORY, even though "The Butcher" is blocked in all my social media. "The Butcher" was able to find me in TikTok and I got ding.... "The Butcher" viewed your profile, not once but 3 times in the last month... I wonder why?     Remember the post  "You Were "M...

"Madafaka"      Hola bebes! I want to say thank you for reading my blog and also keeping up with all my stories, social media, etc. This time we will go back in time to when I first started to get to know myself, became more independent, and started building confidence. Yes, this story has to do with an ex, but hey all exes are lessons and this lesson was a good one.     Let's go back in time to 2017. To the time where I was working at Red Rock Casino as a Cook. Yes, I was a cook for a bit of my life. I don't cook much anymore due to time constriction but I am infatuated with cooking. I used to be a cook for cold foods making salads, cutting fruit, making dressings, plating dishes, along with a lot of stuff. By the way Sarah, Normita and Chris I miss working with you three <3!     Everything started about a week before Christmas of 2017. Station Casinos normally give a $25 dollar gift card to their employees during the ...

You Were "My Kryptonite", Not Anymore     Hola! It's been a long time but to be completely honest life has been busy. New updates are that I am starting nursing school this year which is super exciting!!! I will not have any social life for a whole year and a half but I promise I will try to keep up with the blog.     I have your initials tattooed and covered in my upper back, along with a lot of scars and emotional damage that will forever keep me company. J you were part of 5 years of my life... I forgive you and wish you well but I don't want to know anything about you.     Let's flashback to summer of 2013, I had barely moved to Las Vegas right after graduating high school. I was 18 years old. We met at a Rancho "party", but let's be real everyone was just drinking. We started talking, got to know you a little bit. I thought you were super interesting, hard working, smart, cute hair and you had a super cool 2003 Red Chevy S...

 Superman or Sexiness?     Hi everyone! I know it's been quite some time but you know life is life. I have a lot of exciting things going on and well I might be starting the Nursing program this coming January!!!. So I will say it has been quite a journey to get all the mandatory requirements completed. I also got sick, and of course school is happening.     Well today's story is about Sexiness. You know I always have nicknames for everyone I date. This story is about someone who was never my boyfriend but oh boy that 1 year and a half felt very promising until it wasn't anymore.     Let's see, where should I start? Let's start from when we first met. It was back in winter of 2018, when I used to work at the hospital as a mental health tech and I would supervise patients who attempted suicide, overdose, were aggressive, or had dementia. Can you picture me pinning someone down? Well that was me in some cases because patient...

      10.12.24 *Disclaimer: triggering content so read at your own discretion.         Recently I have been thinking a lot about you. While driving I have been wondering how you are and wish I could tell you how I am. I listen to Rod Wave songs, I remember how you provided a safe space where I felt comfortable to open up. Took all the advice from your dream psychology career because you noticed all my manufactured defects. So, I say thank you for the advice because I can say that therapy has helped to rewire some of my survival skills and it shows a lot. I wish we could have been true friends but it was costing me too much to be around you because just like you noticed all my cracks you know you used my cracks against me.      It all started when you noticed my depressive behavior, my avoiding attachments, my dark humor, my lack of boundaries, and my way of overachieving to give me a sense of fulfillment. Y...

You will always be my MR. Big.      Remember the last post about the relationships? Ok, well let's get started! I'm unsure how to start this one. I will not write all of the past relationships because I had about 50 of them. I will focus on the top 5 maybe 10 most important.     I will start with the most recent one that I thought we would be together for ever. This relationship was the most consistent, most valuable and hurt me a lot when I had to let go.     Started back in September 6th, 2020, during Covid-19 pandemic, in Bear Lake, Idaho. I remember I had asked this man out a month prior, and you know what he told me? He said "Maybe next month, I am going to Kansas to visit my family and I need to mow my lawn this weekend". I said "Ok, I'll wait a month. Just let me know". This man was pushing tote tanks like it was nothing and was going to mow the lawn on the weekend? That you guys made me fall in love.      Anyways, back to the sto...